arrows

DEAR YOU,

i wish you could see yourself

and hear the things you say.

i am very very hurt by you.

last night your words and actions

were so filled with anger and contempt,

the most i have ever seen or felt from you.

it was very very

awkward and embarrassing for me

because everyone at the table

saw how sarcastic, mockingly rude and defensive you were

and it was so plain to all that the fight tonight

was directed at me.

and everyone starting talking about it after you left,

which left me ever more confused and awkward.

no i am not angry with you,

because i understand that you were slightly drunk.

but there is no excuse still.

because no drunk man gets away with murder.

it does not change the fact that i was very hurt by you.

by the things you say one after another.

it is still very heavy in my heart

that you called me by her name.

and just a week later,

you do it again.

not with her name this time

but with your words and actions to me in front of your friends

and that has insulted and belittled me.

so well done.

you've got what you wanted isnt it?

to get back at me,

because all i wanted was a place in your life.

together we've cried about our past,

lived for the present,

and planned for the future.

but still with all that you want me kept in the shadows.

so fine i can live with all that.

but i cannot live with all the frustration and blame

that you take out on me.

especially so what you did last night.

you have hurt me so much,

twice over.

..i really dont know what else to say.

i hope you're happy.

FOREVER, INEZ.