gravity gravity gravity

well, i guess today officially marks the end of my holidays and i cannot even begin to express what a strange emotion running through me tonight. really, the kind of things i've had to go through for me to end up here. an arts management student. what a journey.

a part of me feels very sad, that with management,, im no longer gonna be able to make and create. with management, i'll be the brains behind the creativity and im not sure im ready for that. my life of dance was cut short due to one bad injury after another and i submitted myself to choreography instead. much as i loved it, it was never the same. behind on stage and performing for the crowd was what i loved. not standing behind the curtains wishing i could do everything at once. both choreograph and dance.

once again i find myself in that same spot, with film and management. i dont wanna spend the rest of my life aiding people in their creation. i wanna BE that creativity and produce works to call my own. but i guess, i made the decision and i will just have to suck it up and stick to it.

well, goodbye holidays. you have been harsh on me. welcome, whole life ahead. please be nicer.

"here i am, and i stand so tall, just the way im supposed to be."