All i want for Christmas

Dearest Mr Santa Claus,
i know this is coming a little late to you this year but i've been slightly more busy than i usually am at this time of the year. instead of resting like i should be after a year's work here i am finally gettting busy with all the packing and clearing and cleaning and chucking out old things that i dont need. all in the hopes that it'll make me seem like a hardworking person, working even throught the holidays, so that you'd put me in the NICE section this year.

firstly, i'd like to apologise. i feel bad enough as it is coming to you only once a year, especially so when i want something. you wont take it as a bad judge of my character will you? i realy am actually a nice person. yet this year, some things have changed. i'm honestly starting to feel like writting these letters at the end of the year are quite pointless. we all know you've already given me my present early this year. was it becasue you felt like i deserved it? like i've been through enough? well, all you've given me is enough for me. i thank you so very much, for all the people you have given me as gifts that have helped me get to where i am now. i try to never take for granted the simple luxuries that i have and that i DO have someone somewhere who thinks of me and blessing me with these gifts. i am fully aware that everything i have, own, and gotten is due to the consequenec of someone's actions, and that everyone out there in this univere is somehow affecting me more tha i know of. maybe i should try thanking the father-of-3-three-children who got up very early on a particularly cold day last year in....say, some secluded parts of the states? to go to the factory to make a watch that would have eventually found it's way thousands of miles to a shopping centre where i would conveniently walk pass, see it, like it, buy it, and now wear it (at this very moment i am glancing at it feeling grateful).

this is i think...my second letter to you? each hoping to list down what i want, lack, or feel i need. so when i sat down earlier today thinking about the things i really wanted and needed, i came up with....this. NOTHING. i realised i had a hard time finding things i needed or wanted. nothing came to mind int he first instance. strange i pondered. i usually have nothing that i dont need or want. i am most usually a greedy person. but then again, isnt everyone of the boys and girls writing to you greedy in some way or another? no. i shant make sweeping statements. i had less to ask of you this year, less i needed, less i wanted, and less i lacked. and although 2008 wasnt all that easy for me (hell yeah it was a shit year) i feel that i have much to be grateful for.

so...i hope you've checked your list twice this year beacause you'll be getting another letter from me soon, once i've thought of something i want. no christmas is complete without receiving something with a little touch of the festive you bring. i just hope it wont be too late. but just just just in case it my mail gets lost or comes in a little too late for your convenience, i shall be just as happy to carry it forwards to the next year.

i'm wish you well and i'm so sorry you always have to work during the holidays.
your one and only,
late as usual,
Inez.







"i just want you for my own, more than you could ever know. make my wish come true. all i want for christmas, is you."