new chapters. again.

new chapters. again.



I need a break, really i do. i just need some time on my own to just take a step back to see where this is going. see what i can salvage. it's not gonna be easy i know...but friendships mean alot to me. i can feel the rift and honestly, i felt it coming the day you guys started talking. How did we ever let a guy come between us??





but anyway. had the last of my prelim papers today. and starting tomorrow, it's back to lessons for me and the actual olevel preparations. everyone's asking me how it's going. and my answer...like that la.. i mean..honestly...how good can stuff like that go. it's either you know or you don't know and how much you know or not. so yeah...for me...i havent' really started studying seriously yet. about time i should i know, but i work best under pressure. give me say...a month before the olevels and i'll start then. i promise.





i am allowing myself to be loved again. allowing myself to love again, though i know that there will be people thoroughly against this new chapter i'm in. but please, give me this chance. let me start living for myself. let me do things to make myself happy for once instead of trying too hard to make everyone else happy. either way, my decision breaks one heart. i've already broken his heart once i know..let me try to mend it now. don't hate me for it. don't make me sound like the devil here. i wasn't the one who threw in the towel first. so stop acting like i'm the one that's giving up please. because i'm not. please just let me be happy for a while.






i'm sorry if this changes something. if i had my way i wouldn't have come near this relationship sector in the first place because i'm sure we all know it started there.

i'm sorry. i truly am.