i was never waiting for the tears to start.

i was never waiting for the tears to start.

had my biology and accounts paper today.

don't know what to say. it was a mixture of the bad and the good.

the bio paper i find was actually pretty easy and straight-forward.i could answer the questions fine. the 2nd paper however, was the killer. accounts paper 2. not something i would like to be spending 2 hours of my life doing. i spent the first half an hour staring and doodling at my paper. the still had time to finish and put my head down for about 15 mins when everybody around me was frantically trying to finish the paper.

tara asked me before the paper..why aren't you studying?? and my reply to her was ..not bothered. then she gave me this weird stare. one that you would give to a public nuisence.

maybe i should explain here and now....though i doubt she'll ever read it.

i haven't been studying well for this accounts thingy for the past few years...and i already know i'm gonna fail. it's not condemning myself. it's a fact that i already know and already accepting it. so how's looking through the book 10 mins before the paper ever gonna help me pass. it's stupid if you think it will and i'm pretty sure you'll agree with me on this one.

last night was my first night "alone". no news from anyone.

just me and my eric clapton cd.

and maybe with a FRIEND or two calling to see how i was.

i want you to be happy. that's all that matters.