this other eden

the last time i was inspired to change this blog's template and background, it was borne out my... shall we say, perceived happiness due to my then-current relationship. this blog has till now become a chronicle of my love life. love and relationships has always been the sole topic of this blog. even if i wasn't making a direct commentary about it, my feelings unleashed here were always the side-effect of some fucked relationship that was going on. ashamedly, even i would be hard pressed to find a blog post here that wasn't purely about myself. and by 'myself' i mean, learning and exploring my own thoughts and person.

i have slight hope that this isn't the case anymore. i write these days because i want to. not because i feel like i have no one to turn to or that no one would listen to me because my voice don't matter. children are meant to be seen, not heard? happily, everyone grows up and I'm not a child anymore. and with that i have learnt that my voice does matter. if not to anyone else, then at least to myself. In fact, it is exactly to myself that my voice matters the MOST. if there was ever anyone to tell me that i matter, and my thoughts matter, and that i am important, it would be from my own self. i am glad to say that i have at least learnt this much in all my 27 years. alis grave nil right?

and so tonight i am inspired to change the look and feel of this blog. my humble blog, this other eden.  other than that, i don't actually have words to describe it. i feel calm tonight. something i need more of, and the one and only place i will find it is somewhere i am proud to say i am ready and willing to explore further, myself.

i can already feel it.
this year is going to be good
=)

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"is it a new way? in a new life? 

we could be there on a new high... 

and if it feels good, if it feels right,

if it's as perfect as us, we could coexist"