once again, every new year i find it almost a tradition to give thanks for the people that have been there for me this year. for all the lessons learnt, for all the friendships gained and lost, i can only be grateful for each and everyone.
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Ellis San Thit - Woman, you know what you are to me. ive said it time and time again and i will continue saying it till the cows come home if need be. there's no one i can trust more, no one i know will be there to listen - if a listening ear is all i need. i dont have a long paragraph to write this year. i know we both feel it in our bones. as the years get older, the words get lesser, the understanding gets deeper. i love you and your heart of gold. i feel like such a child saying this but you really are a best friend. you are the Best a Friend can be and you bring out the best of a friend in me. so i thank you, with all the sincerity my heart can manage. it is as humbled as it is proud with the love of this friendship that i carry in my heart with me.
PS) at this point of writing you havent collected your bday present from me yet and i'm soooo omg freaking excited to give it to you! so please, meet faster! i just KNOW you will love it! =)
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Joshua Ogilvie -
hey joshy. you will never read this, and i know it will never ever cross your mind to, but i'd still like to thank you for the role you played in shaping the first half of my 2012 with me. if nothing else, you have been a huge presence in my life albeit from afar. i know i never ever thanked you for this, or even betrayed a hint of appreciation before, but for all the time and effort you had put into keeping our relationship alive and strong through skype and whatsapp. i truly thank you for them. i never felt alone despite the distance and such a wonder it was to feel that way. be it in Shnaghai, Singapore or Melbourne, thank you for always being that rational voice i needed to set my head back on my shoulders. you with your ever cool, ever collected thinking. thank you for opening your home and your heart to me in Melbourne and for spending what i feel was the best overseas experience ive ever had thus far, with me. although we cannot grow as a couple, let us always grow as friends. you have been a great boyfriend while you were it, and now you are an ever greater friend and i will always carry your kindness with me in my heart. big love to you and your family and the girls - whom i miss very very much.
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Amitab Singh -
You're a new name to my blog arent you? definitely not a new friend to me though. you have been a great friend to me this year. a really really great friend who will sit with me till wee hours in the morning just being true to ourselves. you've seen me hurt this year, upset, broken-hearted, happy, thrilled, and let down time and time again, and yet you've never judged. you cannot know how much of a gift that is to me and i can only give thanks to you for that. it means the world to me that i have another friend that i can be truly myself with and i can count on you to be yourself too. Thank you so so much and i wish all the goodness and love upon you and may our friendship last centuries =)
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Viknesh Kumar - Thank you. if i could only say one thing to you at the end of everything, it would be a big FAT Thank You. you have been a good classmate and a greater friend. without you always there to always support and push me to academic betterness, i sincerely would not have gotten as far as i've gotten to till now. Thank you for being such a company for me during our time at Pangdemonium. during the busiest and most hectic of our days, a familiar face was always comforting and truly, what a gift it has been. thank you for being there for me through all the tears, through all the laughter, through all the midnight drives and girlfriend time. and thank you for trusting me enough to come to me with your problems too. because in helping you overcome them, i grew as a person as well. and through days and weeks and months and years together, we have grown, together, to be the kind of powerful independent woman we each wanna be. *hair flick =p* so thank you babe. truly for everything. straight up from the bottom of my heart =)
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and finally, Marco Notarnicola - the person that means the most, the strongest pillar, the warmest hug, the softest touch. my protecter and my dearest. my lover and my friend. my supporter and my fan. defender to my pride and cushion to my fall. how else can i describe you in words that can correctly make manifest what you are to me. you are drama-less, a strong head on your shoulders, you are a good man, and you are exactly what i need. you have been there to protect me, to defend me, to care for me, to feed me, and to be everything i need to me, for me, with me. Thank you. in the most humble of words i can find, a thank you is all i can offer you. i love you, truly. not in a big dramatic way, but in a soft, humble and quiet sense of the word. you have been such a great source of support for me that i cannot even begin to explain what i truly means to me.
i feel like i have nothing to offer you baby. i'm at a point in my life where i'm trying to tie everything together, trying to make sense of this education, internships and jobs. trying to make sense of my health and sickness. of one issue after another. and it's driving me crazy. without you, i dont think i would have had the ability to make such informed choices of the paths im choosing to take. and you are always there. always always always there. never judging and always ready and willing to jump on board with me. you are patient where i am not. you are steady as a rock where i flutter like a bird in the wind. you are calm where i am ready to burst with my hot-headedness and quick temper. you are the solution and i am the quarrel. you are sunshine by the pool where i am an escape in sleep in a dark room. and yet, you love me all the same. with all my mood swings and petty fights. sometimes i dont understand how that is possible. i feel lost and insecure all the time because i feel you deserve better than me, but you're always there to love me. you are tall and strong and i am a tiny asian girl and i rely on you for so much protection and strength. and you're still here. and i thank you for that and i love you for that. this year will be a different kind of year for us. this year will be better. loving you always. always always always =)
"and how can i stand here with you, and not be moved by you"
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