gone

my heart is hurting so much tonight.

i cant decide if i can bring myself to see you off at the airport tmr.

i hate this.

it's so painful to believe that it's finally over.

a part of me really really wants to go.

NEEDS to go.

i need to see you one last time.

my one last chance to memorize the feeling

of your lips on mine,

feel your touch, your skin one final time.

but im so afraid to go.

i cant keep saying Bye to you.

i cant bear to watch you walk away from me knowing that this is it.

julian julian

i love you so much julian

please

i wish you could know what that means.

i wish you could feel all this

i wish it would have made a difference.

i wish you could have given me a chance.

i wish you could hold me forever

i wish i could forever take comfort in you

i wish you'd be here at night when i cry

i wish you'd look at me differently.

i wish you'd think of me sometimes

i wish you'd know.

i wish you could stop my hurting.

i wish you could know how badly i'm falling apart inside.

i wish you'd see how hard i try.

i wish i could have given you more.

i wish i hadnt pissed you off so much.

i wish i could have given you a reason to stay.

"never mind i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you too

dont forget me, i beg

i'll remember you said

sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

nothing compares - no worries or cares

regrets or mistakes, they're memories made

who would have know how bittersweet this would taste."