one day too fast

once again i'm at a point in my life where i'm stuck at the crossroads. i'm stuck between a goodbye and a hello and honestly, i have no fucking clue where to go. i could just sit here for hours on end if i wanted to and wait for a sign. but do i want to? i'm so afraid that i'll end up waiting here forever, out in the cold for so long i wouldn't even recognize a sign when it came, that i wouldn't remember it's warmth.

finally even after going full circle i find myself back in this awkward period of standstill. stuck between moments of uncertainty and unfamiliarity. not knowing if i should put my best foot forwards and embrace the future, or if i should just shrink back to the corner. either way i'm stuck in this whole new world of possibilities and the door i came in from just closed on me. i have nothing but my heart on my sleeve and a pocket full of hope and i pray that's gonna be enough. oh please let it be enough.

"so i grab my bags and go as far away as i can go, cuz everything aint what i used to know."