i think for once i'm the one nursing the crush. for once my heart skips a beat whenever he's near. or when he speaks to me i actually pause and hesitate trying to find the coolest things to say, the wittiest one-liners. for the first time in a long long time i actually feel shy when talking to him, a guy. and shy, me? no way balls. but there you have it. he had the power to do just that. i was supposed to ask him something on behalf of wilfred today but i forgot everything the moment he glanced back over his shoulder and peered at me throught the rows of computers and grinnned with his most boyish charm and can you believe it? as i'm typing this i'm actually smiling to myself like some crazy idiot. we're in the same lecture and in the same lab for certain modules and each time i think about skipping those classes, i think twice. he's there, why in world would i want to skip it for? even of all else fails and there's really nothing to look forwards to in school, he's there. and that's enough for me. i can just stare at him for hours and hours on end and be smiling to myself like some mad mad mad freak. but that's exactly what i'm doing now! oh god...i think this is the first post in a long long time where i proclaim to the world that i actually like someone. and it's scary. ever since i got named the simmering seductress i never found anyone who i actually liked the way i do now. it's always........
ohmygoddamnit.
i like him.
that's official.
and i think i feel normal again.
jeez...
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