kisses on your lips just for coming home

i miss him. the past year together we've haven't yet spent a day apart from each other. i've seen him every single day for the past year and 2 weeks is a long time to be away from someone like him. i don't think ive ever missed someone like this before. easy to understand since i've never yet had a normal relationship. in the past, all the missing that was ever done was out of desperation and mourning for the end of a relationship.

this time, i miss him out of love. there's no despair or bitter feelings. i know he will come back and i know he loves me as ever before. there's no crying no begging no fighting no screaming shouting demanding answers. and while i know that's a good feeling, it's still a horrid emotion to miss someone.

i feel abit lost actually. like i dont really know what im gonna do with my time and my days. what in the world did i ever do when i wasnt with you? i've come to grow and depend on him so much that i almost became a part of him. everywhere he went i was there. and everywhere i wanted to go, he was there too. i cant do anything without him because experiencing life as it is everyday is almost too exciting to not have him there to experience it there with me.

now that he's on a plane halfway across the world, i feel like someone took my compass from me and i'm just circling round and round on the high seas with no aim or ambition. he's been gone 6 hours. it's too long. you need to come home and be with me and see what i did with the wire rack that we got. and then tomorrow i dont think i'm going to the gym because there's too much to do. i'll probably give some of my clothes away and then i'll wash the white sheets at 60 degrees like you said and then if i have time i'll sew on the lace detail. ok?

i think that i'll miss you too much. how can i sleep for the next 15 days if you're not there brushing my hair so i can fall asleep. or who's gonna sing and play the guitar with me? and now i have to go grocery shopping for one person only and the last time i did that was a year ago.

come home quickly bb.