if i dont have the courage to talk about it,
then at least let me blog about it.
it's official.
so what do i do now?
Do i stay in my room all day?
Go out by myself?
Hold my own hand?
Give myself hugs?
Hold myself to sleep at night?
Kiss myself?
Confide in myself?
Comfort myself when im sad?
Share my happiness with myself?
Do i.....
start feeling alone?
what should i do?
it's so easy to be distracted around everyone else.
but when it's dark and im all alone,
and there's nothing to distract me but myself
that it's the hardest.
i have to learn to start getting used to it.
to drum into my head
that there will never be anyone
NEVER be anyone at all,
that can love this sad excuse for a person.
and that there will never be a person
who will ever take the time to know me again
because it is too much of a hassle
and i understand that.
and accept it.
i guess the only thing left to do
is learn to be abit more self-sufficient.
"im a satellite heart, lost in the dark, im spun out so far."
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