step by step

fruitful day it was yesterday! finally i got down to completing some work. filming with my girls was incredibly fun. directing and editing it however was even better. reminded me of i used to be in secondary school being so involved with directing class plays and writing the script and acting and all that fun jazz. i actually even thought for a moment of changing majors. but then again, i am better with words and all that shit so i guess, management would be better for me.

missed school again this morning because i was waaay too tired. my attendance is a horror but then again, i really did promise myself that it will improve. on the "work" hand, i think ima spend today doing some research and printing and cutting and pasting and then maybe do one more rose for my 3D studies. i know i have to come up with something totally amazing to make up for my lack of attendance in class and therefore lack of grades. need to get started like really really soon. hopefully, i still get one more week of illustrator left so that when daddy comes back i can ask him to download Illustrator for me then ask chocho to help em or something. oorr, i might just try to do that myself later on. like soon after i finish this entry.

food wise i havent been up to standard. i feel still very stuck in holiday mood when i stay in bed all and do nothing but watch youtube videos and not work. i was much better last sem wasnt i? well, time to kick start my engine again. this week i promise i will be good since the dreaded monday is over already. extra motivation: long weekend. oh and note to self: super market! or at least get some ingredients first to continue with my Grey Matters Food Blog. ok ok i digress. food wise, i've been bad. eating junk all dat long and no healthy food! snacking on bak kwa early. eating pizza and beer, 1 meal a day and one pack a day is not good for me. not my health, not my wallet.

one thing that im really pleased with myself however, is the fact that finally i think im happy! i no longer feel the need to rant on and on about my useless life situation and yada yada yada yada. no need for this internal turmoil, this struggle to find my place and way. i'm glad that it's all over and finally, FINALLY i am settled. of course school work still on abit of a mess, family situation still as fucked up but still, i know something has changed and i'm really glad about that. what a nice start to 2010! my work is still abit errrr but my friends are amazing, house is amazing, my boyfriend is amazing, my life is settled, gaining favor with the right people, casting out the negative ones, starting a change in my lifestyle. can i ask for more? of cuz there is still the unspoken place in pasir ris that is still unsettled but well.. it's not the time to talk about that so i wont.

my life is getting it's chance.

my mind is getting it's voice,

and my heart has found it's place.

"the broken hearted people living in the world of grief, there will be a answer, let it be. "