life, like maybe other things, won't wait. i tell myself that countless times but i still end up taking for granted the things most important to me. as of now, this very moment, i am happy. i am contented with the man i have and nothing else can replace that. i think perhaps i'm talking too much about adrian. almost every post seems to be about him, but there's just so much i wanna say. so much i wanna tell the world.because i feel so happy. i feel so loved and needed and wanted and cared for and respected. all i wanna do is love him back.
i don't ever want to take him for granted. i don't ever wanna overlook all the times he's been there for me. when he accompanies me back to school. when he meets me in the middle of the night and brings me to eat prata just cuz i said i had the cravings for them. or the times he would walk back with me because it was late and unsafe for a girl to be walking back to his place so late at night. or when he just holds my hands and tells me that he'll always be here for me and that we'll solve this together.
it means the world to me. when chesper died it was his arms i cried into and it was he who told me to cry it out because it didn't matter if i looked like shit after i've cried or not cuz he's still gonna be here for me and love me all the same. he, has seen me in all my glamour and all my unglam moments. seen my lumps and bumps and still caresses me the same way he did the very first time. i told him the other day that i feel so safe with him cuz it feels like i'm being engulfed into a bubble of protectioness whenever i'm with him. and the difference it makes is remarkable. he just laughed, like he always does, and holds me even tighter. and i love it.
well, on another note, i haven't been to the office in about a month now. i miss the guys like hell but they've been so busy with i dunno what and i always seem to catch them at the wrong times. so...i've been spending alot of time at adrian's place cuz OBVIOUSLY i can't stay home and i don't wanna hang out in town so i just come to his place and slack. and sleep and watch tv with Angelo cuz it was the school holidays and have adrian's mom give me some weird EPO black herbal pills cuz i was having crams so bad it could turn the world upside down. but it was nice. and i actually feel more at home here with adrian that i do in my own house. my own house is like a shell i stay in. but adrian's house is like a nest i can LIVE in.
well,i should get going now. i need to sleep. chao.
"funny man, got a plan to be something wonderful. funny man, listening to the world turn in on itself tuning it to a brand new universe, funny man, you could never be anything else."
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