this is shalyn and i in the train on the way to town i think. can't really rmb what we were going to do. but yeah. she has really hepled me alot. for all that she's done i owe her one big...big...big..........sweet.
and then this is me beside her. she took this picture. and that umbrella-ella-ella-eh-eh is hers. check out my ear rings. i love my ear rings.
this is one of my photography works, the raw photo. it's actually taken outside my school. amazing huh the clouds? i love clouds.
this picture is also one of my photography works and i don't have to tell you where it was taken i presume?
ooh oh oh i love this picture. it's one of my favoutites. taken at the esplanade.
ok now this is my hair. shalyn helped me pin it on my bday which i spent with her. i think it's gorgeous. really i do. have been trying to do it myself but i just can't seeme to.
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kboxing was fun. the songs selections were lousy, but the company was great. we were just goofing around with the mic to songs like jambalaya-the carpenters, come on over-christina aguilera and barbie girl!!!! stupid is as stupid does, and we were stupid for the hour. don't think i'm ever gonna go back again though. really too cheena for my liking. don't know how anyone can spend weekends in karaoke lounges.
things gave gotten stagnent. today's my fisrt day back in school and i'm not enjoying it one bit. everything's too slow. too dreary. too cold. i can't even seem to be typing in nice proper sentences. i've been spending alot of time during my holidays asking myself what the one thing that's missing was. and today i found out the answer. intellectual conversation. it's so hard to find someone to talk to intellectually nowadays. someone who won't get aggressive when discussing life. someone who i can critisize religion to and not have him/her offended. or just to question the ways of life over a nice cuppa discussing the wonders of the world speculating on how the pyramids were built and coming up with our own theories about them. twisted as they are, our own nonetheless. someone who will sit beside me in silence and enjoy the sea breeze by the ledge along esplanade. silence, very much an essential. something i haven't been getting enough of. someone who can be one with me in my solitude. so much so that i feel comforted that someone is near and at the same time not feel as though they are intruding in my silence and train of thought.
who can do that nowadays?
it's almost impossible.
i miss my holidays. i miss the rmt office. where i can just sit in my corner cutting stars and rectangles and penguin feet. counting and printing by the photocopying machine and slowly spilling my inner most thoughts and feelings to people whom i know will not judge but advise me. explaining to them the situation i'm in and for once not have them say anything just for the sake of saying them in the name of sympathising. now that school has started my schedule is going to be too hectic. i just got my new timetable and lesson plans and exam timetables and all and man...if it's not RUSHED personified i don't know what is. it's barely been a few hours and i'm already here screaming for my peace. screaming to be around people will speak to me in english and not singlish. people who can carry out a proper intellectual conversation.
but there's none of that where i go.
and none where i am.
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