i spent the entire night just lying one my bed thinking. i was thinking about everything i could possibly think of. from home to school to matters fo the heart to....about everything.
i must have thought about too hard and abit too much beacuse about at 4 am in th morning, i started having a terrible headache. i didn't know what to do then, i cried.
ok i know it sounds stupid. even now myself, typing this, i feel stupid. like why did i cry for?? bcause no matter how much i would have cried it woudn't have helped me in any way.
but at that time, i cried for everything that i've kept in that i haven't gotten a chance to let out.
anyway, i made a decision today that i very much regret now at this very moment. but i couldn't change it now even if i wanted to. i told someone something. then later, i regreted.
i was like..oh shit..why did i say that??!! one of these days the things i say is gonna get me into trouble.
but it's always the case with me. i say things first..then think about it later. and i don't even realise it when i offend people.
but it's really tiring to have to watch what you say all the time...all beacuse people in the world are so quick to detect insult and so unwilling to forgive.
i need a break.
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