breathing...

ok so the holidays are over, but honestly, it hardly feels like a holiday at all.
i've been so busy with school and dance and the household chores that i'm struggling to find time to breathe.



hopefully, now that school's starting again, it won't be so hectic. but i doubt it.
i end school at 4pm everyday. if not later if i have my rehersals.
but july 15 and it will be all over. the it's time to really concentrade on my books.
so far i'm struggling. but struggling well.
when the concert is over, i bet the pace will double, if not triple.




but it's cool. i'm having alot of people coming to me and telling me that they would be there for me. one says he'll be there in a flash if i ever need help.
the other says he'll drop everything for me if i call. and both says that i know they'll always be there.




feel guilty..
don't feel guilty...
feel guitly..
don't feel guilty..



you tell me. it's not that easy.






i opened my heart to one.
and another fell in instead.
and that's making me feel guilty.
i don't wanna hurt anyone.


it's in times like this i hate being a simmering seductress.
really i do.





so yeah..piss to the world.
or rather..piss to this crazy little thing called love.

doesn't seem so little from my point of view.