demure.

yesterday denise n i were in the canteen eating and we started talking about how we were so very different in our own ways.

then she told me.." you're so demure and graceful in your actions."



man i was like... DEMURE ?!?!
i am not demure or graceful in any sense of the word man. what the hell was she thinking about.
i am not demure and i don't want to be demure/graceful.



she explained that it's not demure as in my character, but demure as in the way i walk, talk an behave. i certainly do not agree with her.



maybe it's because she sees me more actively as a dancer in school that's why..so when i got back to class, i tried to reconfirm the fact that i am not demure/graceful but ended up getting dissapointed. out of the 5 people that i asked, ALL said i was.



but i don't want to be that way.
i see being demure as a sign of weakness. maybe graceful for me would be a bit of a compliment considering the fact i am a dancer...but demure??
i am in no position to be weak at the moment. not when there are so many responsibilities to shoulder.